So, recently I’ve been trying to figure out what is going on with me creatively. I haven’t really had much time or opportunity to create… Working 10am to 6pm, seven days a week, makes it hard enough to find the time to buy groceries, or even socialize.
Of course, I am constantly scrolling through Instagram, flipping through magazines, and reading articles whenever I can. But when eight hours of every day are restricted to focusing on the task at hand — or risking a slap on the wrist for distracting yourself with email updates from Vogue and push notifications from CNN — its difficult to keep up to date on all the latest fashion, art, music, and politics.
Additionally, and quite honestly, I’ve been pretty broke. Like the kind of broke where I can’t even use my credit card anymore (its been a lil rough). But its toughened me up, and given me a better perspective on where I need to focus my spending habits.
Working in fashion, or any field really, means keeping up with the latest trends while also creating your own innovative looks. It may sound like an excuse, but not being able to buy anything new for the last three months (besides one pair of pants) has made me begin to hate getting dressed in the morning…
I mentioned that I stay up to date on the latest whatever as much as I can, but when I can’t actually implement anything of the latest whateverinto my every day looks, what does it matter?
I’ve been feeling like everything in my closet in outdated, ugly, cheap looking, while at the same time finding myself unable to clear things out despite the fact that I only wear 20% of my wardrobe. Especially with living in NYC, where even the dressed-down and grungy kids look chic and effortless, while I’m over here wearing something I don’t even like anymore, and its had me feeling VERY stuck. It was hard to see so many people looking so good and feeling like I could never pull that off…
Just to add to the pile of complaints… For a while I really felt like it didn’t matter what I wore anyway. Like anything in life, I started off my first internship by taking the time to look office-chic, but over time I began to wake up later and later (mostly due to exhaustion) and stopped doing my makeup, which led to me wearing more and more casual looks. Then I started another internship, and the cycle began again. No one saw me during the day besides my manager, and no one was around capture a photo of my outfit, so what was the point in trying?? I really didn’t know.
Now I do.
Feeling like your creativity is waining, feeling like you don’t look good, and not feeling any desire to try, can kick start a ROUGH cycle of self-doubt and loathing. Last night I talked to some creative friends about this dip in creative energy and they told me that the same thing happened to them when they first moved to New York. The causes may have varied, but the results were the same:
Lack in Creative Ideas. (for photoshoots, outfits, articles, stories, poems, make, hair, music, whatever your outlet).
Dip in Creative Effort. (ceasing to produce, no desire to even try, saying no to projects).
Self-Doubt & Loathing. (feeling like maybe you’re not a creative, like you’re in the wrong industry, like its not going to work out for you).
Frustration with Everything. (pursuing to discover the causes of this depressing drought of ideas, passion, and desire).
Figuring Out What Needs to Change. (self explanatory).
If you’re still wondering: What’s the point in trying? Its you. You are the point.
YOU are the one who not only considers yourself to be “a creative” - you also need a creative outlet, work in a creative field, and derive a good portion of your happiness from the ability, opportunity, and process of creating.
So, unfortunately once again my motivation to create fun, smart, cool, and/or different looks every day was a new internship. BUT, but, its FINALLY a creative internship. So looking good is kind of a requirement, THERE IS A POINT outside of myself. And this time, it stuck. It’s been two months, and I’m still wearing combinations I’ve never worn, grabbing forgotten and abandoned pieces out of my closet, and feeling good about the things I’ve put together. I also bought some new shoes. (shh).
I’ve gone through comfy and casual phases before… but its never mattered so much to me (mostly because I didn’t care or have to try during high school and college as much as I do now). Now, I think what was most upsetting about the blockage in my creative flow, was that I was finally in a setting where 1. I cared. 2. it mattered. 3. it would be appreciated. 4. I was (am) surrounded by inspiration.
New York is CRAWLING with stylish people, not only NYC residents but also visitors from around the world!! THERE IS SO MUCH INSPIRATION. And people are looking at, appreciating, and commenting on your creation. There’s nothing better than a chic European complementing your look, or a piece of it. Wait, actually there is: when that European is a stylist doing a studio pull at Bloomingdales, and you’re sitting there admiring the collection of pieces she’s chosen, and she looks at your and says “UGH, I love those pants. Your look, its so good. You look good!”
LIKE OMG WHAT GIRL THAT YOU OMG NO YOU LOOK GOOD OMG NO THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU. - me.
Anyways, the point of this article is this: I am revamping my digital creative outlet: my website. And I’ve decided that I don’t care if anyone ever sees any of it, or even this piece! (although it’d be nice). I’ve discovered that if I’m going to be honest with myself, I need to admit that I need a catch-all for my creativity, and that I also need a motivation. If I set goals for myself, provide myself a platform to fulfill those goals, and keep myself accountable by admitting that this is something that I need to be happy, that its all I need.
I’ve been brainstorming some ideas for what I am going to do on my new creative outlet platform, and I’ve also decided that it doesn’t matter that I won’t be consistent. I’m not a blogger or whatever, and this is mostly just for me. So when I have the time, and when my ideas work out, there will be some content on here for those of you who give a sh*t! :) <3
Given both the fact that I wrote my original about me when I was 20 years old, and that I now live in Brooklyn -- rather than Minneapolis -- I figured it was time to update my "About Me" spiel.
So here's the rub: I am 22 (23 in December), a recent graduate from the University of Minnesota, with a degree in Communications - focusing on media and visual communications, and a minor in Fashion Studies. I moved to NYC pretty much immediately after graduating to pursue a serious career in fashion.
In my 5 short months as an NYC resident, I have spent time as a Communications Intern for a fine jewelry designer, a PR intern for a consultancy company, and as a freelance stylist [assistant/intern], in addition to working 2 fashion week shows, meeting so many amazing people within & without the industry, all while learning a heck of a lot about the real world.
A lot of people, including all of my close friends and family were surprised by the move, as was I. Not only for its suddenness, but also because I spent so much of my life talking about living in California. But there came a time, while narrowing in on my graduation, where I began to seriously think about what exactly I was going to do next. I realized that one: I could not just sit around in Minneapolis and wait for my lease to be up in September to make any moves, and two: that all of the work that I really wanted to do was here in New York City.
So, I looked into it, I found potential roommates, I began crazily applying for jobs and saving my money, and booked a weekend trip to the city for interviews and apartment hunting. Less than three weeks later I was moving into my Brooklyn apartment with a fellow Minnesotan fashionista pursuing her dreams.
To be honest, there are times where its been TOUGH, but there are also times where its been AMAZING and I just stop and think "I can't believe this is my life..." and I am excited for whats to come. I mean... it hasn't even been a year yet and I feel like I've done so much.
Anyways, welcome to my website, where I randomly decide to share my outfits and/or photos from the more eventful days of my life. You will also find a consistently updated portfolio, which is small but growing.
Thanks for visiting!
Its officially September, and so its time to start looking ahead and getting excited about this year's autumnal trends. However, we're definitely still experiencing summer weather, so I've made a simple trend board to ease my mind as I wait in anticipation for the temperature to drop. This season its all about 70s silhouettes, menswear inspired looks, and a pop of red or orange!
I’ve lived in (or directly next to) a metropolitan for most of my life, but Minneapolis is no N.Y.C. *obviously*
While I am used to a few skyscrapers surrounding me, I am also used to an abundance of nature and fresh air very near by, as well as a little goddamn peace and quiet.
NYC is its own creature, and sometimes that creature needs to take a freakin’ nap and give you a little time for some R&R ~ but it won’t, so… how does one find some goddamn peace in the middle of all this noise and chaos?
Here are my tips:
- Bring a novel with you everywhere you go. Read while on the subway, or at a park for your lunch break. Focusing on a beautifully written story will allow you to forget about everything and immerse yourself in an alternate reality, even if only for 5 minutes. Plus, reading puts your brain to work, and that’s a very good thing.
- Currently reading Nausea by Jean Paul Sartre - a philosophical novel by the existentialist philosopher Jean-Paul Sartre, published in 1938. The eloquently written faux-diary of a French Historian is the perfect reading piece for picking-up and putting-down constantly, but never losing the story.
- Download a peaceful / chill playlist to your Spotify Offline. Getting a signal on the subway can be tricky, and you DO NOT want to use up all of your data even if you can find it. By taking the playlist offline you can put it on anywhere you go, and drown out the noise for a bit. (Benefits of relaxing music).
- Check out my favorite chill playlist here. I prefer a mix of electric, dreamscape music paired with acoustic, folksy tunes to mellow out while at the same time changing the mood every so often ~ because sometimes chill music can be so sad…
- Take advantage of bad weather. Rainy/snowy days are the BEST for chilling out in a dim and cozy space, watching a movie, and taking a breath. While stimulating your brain with a good book is always a good thing, sometimes we need to let ourselves veg out. Also, make a to-do list and take the time that this bad weather has given you to pick-up your room, do the dishes and laundry, etc. All of those household things you'd rather not be doing on a beautiful day, do them today.
- My recommendation: Harry Potter marathon, taking breaks throughout to get those annoying chores done. Its perfect for groggy days and there are enough of them to fill the whole day!
- Listen to non-fiction audiobooks. I recommend “self-help” and memoir-type non-ficion because they kind of feel like podcasts, and listening to these types of books is an easy way to distill some education into your hustle and bustle type of days, when you just don’t have the time to sit down and read.
- Big Magic or The Art of Not Giving a Fuck are a couple of great options. The former is great for getting the creative juices flowing, or simply just for understanding your own creativity. The latter, well its in the title, is it not?
- Find time to spend with friends and family. This is vital. The busier we get, the harder and harder it becomes to find a time where everyone is free. But a lack of socialization can drive anyone crazy. Schedule in quick coffee and lunch dates, and look at local event calendars to find out when there are chill-out events going on that you can both/all make it to.
- In NYC this summer, HBO has a Movies in the Park series at Bryant Park, I recommend grabbing a bottle of wine and some snacks, throwing down a blanket, and enjoying the city from a rare grassy knoll with friends.
I’ve only lived in the Big Apple for two months, but I think that these tips are pretty solid and well rounded! Please tag me in any implementations! :)
Bodysuit: ZARA ~ Shorts: H&M ~ Purse: Urban Outfitters
Top: Calvin Klein via Urban Outfitters ~ Shorts: Forever21 ~ Shoes: H&M
As some of you may already know, last week - May 23/24 - I packed up my life and moved from Minneapolis, MN to NYC! Crazy, I know. I moved to pursue a career in the fashion industry, beginning with interning as a Communications intern for a fine jewelry designer!
Before starting work, I have taken the last week to move out/in, and get settled in my new home.
So far, I have just been exploring the city - getting to know my surroundings. This includes a trip to SoHo, window shopping in designer shops and vintage boutiques.
I am excited to start this journey in a new city, and for the new content that I have planned! Stay tuned, xx.
Outfit Details: Top: Forever21, Flannel: H&M, Skirt: BDG - UO, Sneakers: Nike, Purse: Coach, Sunnies: Amazon
Everybody knows about the more controversial outerwear piece that made its way back to the runway this season: the puffer coat. In variations of knee-length or cropped, sleek or marshmallow-like, the puffer coat (or jacket) comes in all shapes and sizes, as well as colors. As a long-time refuser of anything practical when it comes to clothing, I've always steered clear of this kind of piece.
But this year, the artstry and experimental versions of the trend caught my eye. I first became obsessed with Balenciaga's red take on the trend when scrolling though London Fashion Week street style photos on Refinery29's site, and I saw this image. I mean, how cute is she? And for some reason this totally impractical combo works for me! After this, I had to have one. Still, my impractical-fashion self couldn't bring myself to spend the money ZARA's version until it went on sale in February. Who cares, all that matters is that I have it now, and I wear it ALL THE TIME.
Here I've decided to wear it casually, with an H&M catsuit underneath, and a simple pair of white Nike sneakers.
For those of you heading out to someplace lovely and warm for the week, here's some ideas of what to pack based on the contents of my own suitcase! (I'll be in SoCal).
- Sunglasses: because, duh.
- Heeled Sandals: an easy way to dress up any outfit!
- Comfy Sneakers: I'll be doing a bit of walking around in the next few days.
- Denim: any and every kind!
- Jumpsuit: I chose a dressy number for a potential night out/fancy dinners.
- Graphic Tee: perfect for a casual coffee run or a day at the beach!
- Instax & DSLR Cameras: if you didn't get a picture, did it even really happen?!
- Travel Journal: a fun way to document the trip and get some creativity flowing!
- Laptop: because I still want to get some work done.
- Backpack: doubles as a carry-on, and a camera + supplies bag.
- Swimsuit: another duh.
These days love can be hard to muster, hard to find, hard to believe in. With a country founded on the idea that people should have the chance to make their dreams come true by coming to a land of opportunity, one that was founded on the right to free speech , the right to freely protest and to question the government, it is hard to watch what is happening in the United States and feel love and to feel loved.
But as we’ve seen in the past two weeks, LOVE REALLY CAN TRUMP HATE. Millions of people have taken it to the streets to show just how much love there really is in the world, and to show the disenfranchised that they are not alone.
This month, that is what I will be focusing on. Spreading Love & Positivity, Fighting for Love & Acceptance & Inclusion & Understanding.
Last year I spent Christmas in San Francisco, where it rained almost the whole week (not atypical of SF in the winter). So this year I intended to spend my holiday in the sun and hopefully catch a tan by going to San Clemente in Southern California. Well, a major storm came through the western half of the country, giving me another Christmas full of rain.
Nonetheless, it was a vacation -- a break from school and work in any weather is always nice. I got to spend the week relaxing with my mom and my pup. I went for several long walks on the beach (with said mom and pup). I watched the entirety of the Today show for the first time in what feels like forever, and I did that every day. I watched (xmas) movies. I explored San Diego. I took over CollegeFashionista's SnapChat for Xmas Eve. I even networked and got some work done! All in all, pretty good trip. Here's some highlights...
Here's what I wore...
Here's some things I did and some places I went...
Here's some palm trees and ocean skylines...
See ya for Spring Break, San Clemente 👋
As I look back at 2016, and think about the new year, I reflect on the trends that arose in the last year and don't seem to be going anywhere. To gather my thoughts I created this mood board using the PANTONE Colors of the Year for 2016 - Rose Quartz and Serenity.
At the end of every year we hear things like "The trends NO ONE will be wearing in ," but we know that there still many trends that won't simply disappear once the clock strikes midnight.
Metallics, faux furs, velvets and other textiles and textures made their way into the 2016 fashion cycle, and we will continue to see them throughout the rest of the colder months.
So here's to 2017 and the new inspiration it will bring to 2016's many trends.
*Images pulled from my AW16/17 Mood Board on Pinterest*
I have always had a love for photography, and in addition to bettering my writing in a fashion journalism context, my internship at CollegeFashionista has really allowed me to hone in on my portrait and blog-style photography skills over the last year.
Unfortunately, CF's format only allows for three to four photos per article. All too often, I have so many photos to choose from and it is difficult for me to favor some over others. In this particular shoot it was extremely difficult for me because I think they all turned out so well!
My beautiful best friend, Mackenzie, assisted me with my last article for the Fall 2016 semester by being my model/Fashionista! I have to comment on how sophisticated and refined her style has become over the three years that I have known her, and she often inspires me to skip on the leggings and cozy sweaters when getting rushing to get ready for class (well, most of the time!).
So, because I am just so in love with how these photos turned out, I had to post the rest here. The combinations of colors in the wooden fence, the garage wall, and the vine frame perfectly compliment the cold tones of the garments paired with the warm tones in her skin. The outfit itself matches the gloomy air of this rainy day, and cloudy skies always make for perfect lighting without any odd shadows so we can see every detail clearly.
The article will go live in mid-December, which I will then link so you can read all about how and why we created this perfect and cozy Coffee Date Outfit! Until then, here are some of the photos we took today... (FEEL FREE TO CLICK ON THE IMAGES TO VIEW THEM IN A LARGER SIZE!!) Enjoy.